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There are just those certain old people out there in the world that you just want to give a big hug. I had one of those at work today. He was the sweetest old man. He had bought some sheets there the other day and was looking for a bedskirt to match. Of course the ones he bought didn't have a matching bedskirt or any kind of bedskirt at all. So I walked around with him trying to match them up to any of the bedskirts we carry. Again, none matched remotely. Then he goes into about how his wife died not that long ago and he thought it was time to change up the sheets because they were old and worn. Of course now I feel terrible for him. Honestly he seemed a little lonely and just wanted some company for a bit, because we kept walking back and forth to the same ones we had already looked at. How could I possibly get mad or anything? What with him talking about how it's only him now and he might even just sell the whole place and move into an apartment. Seriously dude, you're breaking my heart here. I was trying not to tear up. But alas we decided to go a whole different route and he bought new sheets with a matching bedskirt and decided to return the other ones. Such a sweetheart though. It's times like that where I don't hate my job so much.

I'm feeling: indescribable indescribable
I hear: Nothing actually; no tv, no music

The first day back at work after a few days off really sucks. I was so sore today from standing and walking all day long, I could barely move after work. I guess pregnancy will do that to ya. Plus on top of it all, I'm have a wicked head cold now too. It started a little bit before we left for Chillicothe and just progressively got worse. And speaking of that road trip, let me just say I will never complain about the drive to St. Louis again. Seven hours in a car is ridiculous I tell ya. On top of all that too, today is Friday but feels like Monday to me so I'm completely thrown off as to what day it is. I can't believe Christmas has already come and gone. Now it's going to be New Year's and that's just crazy! Time is flying by. The baby is going to be here in no time and I can't even figure out a friggin name I like.

location: Bedroom
I'm feeling: exhausted exhausted
I hear: Law and Order: SVU

Ah, it's been a while again since I posted. But I have real reasons this time. I swear!! Well first off, I did go to the high risk OB and she did all the measurments on the baby and everything and she said that everything looked good, no signs of any defects or anything. So that was definitely a HUGE relief off my shoulders there. And we did find out it's a girl too! I really didn't care either way, but a girl is definitely cool. Mike's words as I was talking to my mom on the phone, "Tell her it's missing it's penis." What a dork. Anyway, other than that everything's been going ok. Just tired a lot still, but I guess it isn't helping that I'm working 6 days a week and the people there are just wearing me out. I hate how needy everyone is around Christmas that they need me to find every little thing for them in the store. I did call in on Sunday b/c I was just exhausted and really not feeling well. My aunt had invited me over and I felt bad for not going over to do the Christmas thing for my sister but I slept all day. I was going to fall and completely forgot. Oh well I'm sure they all think I'm horrible anyway but what are you gonna do.

The other big thing, we got all moved into our new apartment. It's so much nicer and bigger than my old place. We just finally got the cable hooked up last week, so there's another excuse for my internet neglect. I really hate Comcast. First they say it'll be a week before they can get out here. Then we call to check to make sure of the time and they tell us it's been cancelled. Never found out who exactly decided to cancel our appointment, but it took them another two days to get out here b/c of the ice storm. Mike did say the guy was pretty much a raging idiot too and probably drunk or god knows what. He actually asked Mike for help on hooking the stuff up too. And was dropping f bombs left and right. Not that I never do that or anything, but come on you're on the job here buddy. Lovely.

I pretty much have everything unpacked but still need to do the hanging/decorating part. I even had my sisters, niece, and mom over Saturday to make cookies. Stupid me forgot to buy storage containers so they could take some with them though. There's a ton here though and I'll deliver some to them once I buy some containers. I still need to decorate the baby's room(need to find a name I like damnit) though. Most of the furniture and stuff I'll be using though is my sister's and she lives in St. Louis. So it'll be another couple weeks before I can even get down there to get it. My mom said she'd go and pick up the stuff but I need to wait until I can take a couple days off to be able to go.

And that's the end of my super interesting update. Interesting side note though, I did eat nearly an entire jar of pickles tonight. Now I've always loved pickles, but I'm thinking the whole pregnancy thing might have had something to do with that also.

location: Bedroom
I'm feeling: sleepy sleepy
I hear: Law and Order: SVU

I fucking hate doctors. You can't call someone and give them possibly bad news and then make them wait a week to find out anything. Ok I suppose I should explain. I had some blood tests done at my last appointment and she called back yesterday saying that the results were a little abnormal. The cystic fibrosis and spina bifida came back negative for the baby. Which is great news. Then she says that it came back as a slightly higher risk for Downs Syndrome. So I'm going to a high risk OB next Wednesday for more tests and a level 2 ultrasound to find out anything more. Needless to say, I'm a bit of a mess right now. I mean it's not the end of the world, but I just want my baby to be healthy. Is that so much to ask for? I just hate that it feels like such a long wait to find out what's going on. All I can really do is wait and see I guess. Regardless I'm gonna love the hell out the little stinker.


Why am I so god forsaking awful with these things? I do so good for a while, then ignore it for even longer. I just don't know why. It could be lately that I've been feeling like doing a whole lot of nothing after work for the past couple of months. No excuse though.

I could say nothing's been going on but that would be a lie. Most of it is work, which is just blah. I soooo hate that place but now I'm stuck for a bit what with needing the maternity leave. And that's the bigger thing. A baby on the way. Talk about freaking crazy. I've always wanted to have kids, can't say that now is the best time, but what are you gonna do? I'm excited anyway. Freaked out also, but excited nonetheless. Mostly lately I've just been tired. They say that's supposed to let up a bit during your second trimester, which I'm now in, but I've yet to feel that. And of course there's the crazy mood swings. Now don't get me wrong, I've pretty much always been a bitch, but now it's that one minute, then I feel horrible and usually end up crying. It's all kinds of fun. Now I'm gonna have to start getting some bigger clothes too. I can still wear my khakis to work, but I can't button most of them, so I just wear a belt and they're good as new. Haha. I do refuse to wear some of those crazy bow scary maternity things. I think not.

And now the holidays are pretty much here too. I'm trying not to let work ruin them like they have the past couple of years. I want to enjoy them this year. Thanksgiving's a week away. I still don't really know what we're doing. My aunt is supposed to have it, but she basically doesn't want to so that should be fun. Plus I have to be at work at 4, yes 4am the next day. So I'm not going to be able to stay late, so hopefully it's remotely early so I can go. But that's that I guess. I'm damn hungry again and I want some food.

location: mi casa
I'm feeling: blah blah
I hear: CSI on tv

Taken from meridian rising

Tell Me About You

1. Name: Hillary
2. Birthday: June 22, 1984
3. Place of residence: crappy apartment; Olathe, KS
4. What makes you happy: not working, my family, my crazy animals, Mike
5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last: Mike talking to his dad on the phone
6. Do you read my lj: that's the first thing I do, after email. haha i'm stalking you
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it: you post all the time, and i always love the randomness about it
8. An interesting fact about you: i'm in no way interesting
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment: yeah
10. Favourite place to be: home, i don't know anywhere but Target
11. Favourite lyric: Drawing a blank here...
12. Best time of the year: Fall/Autumn whatever you wanna call it
13. Weirdest food you like: I'm pretty normal with my food actually
14. Do farts make you laugh: Depends who's doing it. Wasn't too funny when the guy sitting by us at Olive Garden kept doing it the other day.


1. A film: I'm gonna have to think about that, you've seen just about anything I have
2. A book: Can't think of the author, but they're Anne Boleyn, Henry VIII (I think that's 8th) etc involved.
3. A band, a song and an album: I already recommended Alkaline Trio, think that turned out pretty well. :)


1. One thing you like about me: You're my sister, pretty much my only friend, even if I'm not always there...I'm a crappy friend. Never had one longer than like a year. But you're obligated damnit!
2. Two things you like about yourself: Yeah, can't think of anything...
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you.

(Your mom'll put this in her lj.)


Stupid work! While my entire family is out celebrating my uncle's birthday I have to stay in because I have to be up tomorrow at 5:00. I'd have gone for a little bit, but it's apparantly not really starting until like 9:00. I have to be in bed by then haha.

I've been feeling so blah lately. I have no motivation to do anything at work. Yet of course I still show up and do my job...I do it very well too. That place just sucks so much. Plus I've really been wanting to go running again but it's way too hot to even attempt that. I'm not about ready to pass out on the side of the road (which I almost did do one time).

I shouldn't complain too much. I did go out last Friday night. A bunch of us from work went to Lawrence. It was definitely fun.....and crazy. I didn't drink a whole lot because I already had a headache and wasn't about ready to make that worse. Everybody else drank enough for me though. It was dollar you call it, or something like that at one of the bars. That's right, drinks for $1. That's insanity.

Anyhoo, not a whole lot else has been happening. Next week my sister and I are going to Warped Tour on Wednesday, damnit don't let me forget to pay you for that! Then my other sister and nephew are coming in from St. Louis. That should be fun. It's always interesting when we're all together. Well I'm off to go find some food to fill my belly with. Peace out!

I'm feeling: blah blah
I hear: Law and Order SVU on TV

Today was only my second day back to work from my vacation and I'm already counting down the days until Wednesday, my next day off. I just really hate being there now. I don't really look forward to anything there and it's usually just miserable being there. I'm attempting to put my resume together to figure out something new. I just can't get it worded right. It sounds funky. My sister's job has an opening that sounds kind of cool. I just definitely need something new.

In other news, I prettied up my journal. I want a moodtheme though now. Ha!

I'm feeling: tired tired
I hear: Cardinals game

Work was interesting today. I have a transfer from another store who is fully trained already (yay for that). I can't really tell if I like her or not, she's kinda bitchy, but then again so am I. She talked a lot about how her store did things, which is pretty annoying, but understandable. It just kinda seemed like she was criticizing everything about our process. But her store was a D volume store and ours is an A. So ours is much bigger. They had maybe 3 trucks a week. We get at least one truck a night, sometimes two plus a grocery truck. Oh well, if she quits-she quits. I want somebody who can handle it. Everybody else is quitting on me. I must be hard to work with or something. Sorry if I expect you to show up and do the job properly.

I can't wait until Wednesday. It's the first day of my vacation. Wednesday-the next Friday!! Yay. New York here I come. Souvenirs for all!! Plus it'll be nice to be able to sleep in. I was so tired after work, I passed out. Literally. I woke up at around 7pm or so, just in time to watch Supergator on SciFi. (Oh how I love you, original SciFi movies.) Then I went to bed at about 10pm. I actually felt remotely rested this morning. It was very nice. I really wanted to go over to my mom's yesterday to swim though. Stupid work...

location: Bedroom
I'm feeling: hungry hungry
I hear: Cubs game, and Mike talking to his brother on the phone

Man work really sucked today. I was by myself from 6am until about 8:30 when we managed to call in a girl from my team to come in to help me out. I love trying to do the work of 2-3 people by myself all the time. It's awesome. And then the people there wonder why I'm stressed or ask me what's wrong all the time. What the hell do they think is wrong? Idiots...But oh well it's over for today. Another day tomorrow. Oh crap we have all kinds of "visitors" in the store tomorrow morning. That means all the head honcho district people come in to check up on us and tell us things we do wrong. Ugh...

In other news, I spent about $40 today after I got off of work. I bought one purse that was $20. The rest...Harry Potter pretties from the $1 Spot. Yay!!!! I think we're supposed to be getting new/different stuff too.

location: My apartment
I'm feeling: giddy giddy
I hear: Just me typing
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